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onramp year two 2002
onramp year one 2001
Dustbin days- 2000
2000-09-22 - 16:28:29
ooohhh, here i am. i have been away from computers and going to bed way too early.
i went to the first girl group pot luck. it was so awesome but there seems like a million differt ideas and a million different variables. it felt good but scary to sit in a room and talked with other girls. lindsay was really scared but i was proud of her for bringing up her fear and bringing up the issues with Pat, the fucker who pined her to the stairs and put his toungue in her mouth, but no one seems to notice because he bar tends and gives peopel free drinks and he is in a band and has a recordign studio. so, by mentioning it to the other women we are raising awareness to them and unifying us. we are meeting again on sunday. i hope we can make a more cohesive idea of what we want to do.
on another note i have been feeling really happy and good. way too happy so things that aren't so great bring me down. i am starting to track my moods. i didn't use to let these things bother me. but now i feel ultra sensitive. i almost wish i was writing in my notebook. i write faster than i type. a lot faster. i know joe is the one who makes me feel so sensitive i think i resent him for it sometimes. i hate how i find myself on the defensive when he really is just trying ot help. i think there are a few things that he can't de program. i am a 5 foot tall 100 pound girl, like i said before, i know my strengths and most of them are on the inside. he will never know what it is like to be that. i hate how gendered it makes me feel but i can't help that. it does dictate how i see the world and how others treat me. it is a real thing it is not fabricated like joe hints at. oh well there are people here and i'm at zack's i think i will got be social and try to figure this all out later.-alex
***MICROCOSM PUBLISHING***we make 1" buttons, stickers, shirts, and patches. we also distro recrods, books, zines and more. this is how joe and i make a living
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/>why is this so hard? - i hate being proved right almost as much as i hate being proved wrong
