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onramp year two 2002
onramp year one 2001
Dustbin days- 2000
Tuesday, Mar. 30, 2004 - 8:56 a.m.
the weather is beautiful here. i keep staring at the mountians to the east as if they are jsut going to up and go away.
i have been spending time with only a few old friends. it is good. i have thrown out the idea of things being "weird" or "strange" because they are only how i choose to accept them. and they are vague fucking terms any way, really.
today i plan to go to the library down town and do some research on radical utah history but my heart really isn't in it. i like the idea of this beign a vacation because i have been sitting around watching tv just like if i was at my paretns house. i must be detached from the rest of america because i can't for the life of me figure out what is going on in commercials. weird. i think it is a good sign.
i walked around sugarhouse looking for post cards to send to people yesterday. i ended up at a walgreens built on the same land as the old goth club that i went to once in high school and once in college. then i walked down 11th to the post office that was still there and by the scientology church that has sandwhich boards asking you to go inside and take tests. i remember walking that way from class at westminster to the coffee shop i used to work at.
i have been playing the "remember when..." game with people and it feels nice t ocompare memories somtimes. it sets me in place and makes me realize what "really" happened besides what's in my head.
i'm going to go visit a friend at work. i realized that until recently in my mind he was always and ex. but i have discarded that loaded term and finally after 5 years replaced it with friend. what took me so fucking long?
i'm really starting to realize what a selfish person i have been and how hard it has been for me to step out of my head for msot of my life. hiding in a notebook only has made that worse as well as the internet.
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